Day 2 into 3

Good morning!  I woke up on my own, wide awake and ready to take on the day at 5.30 am (ten minutes before my abnormally early alarm was scheduled for a boot camp class) and realized I had made the critical mistake of sleeping on my stomach.  Now, no matter how great my new bed is (and it really is great), sleeping on my stomach is the KISS OF DEATH for my lower back.  Blah, blah, blah....I used that as an excuse to skip boot camp class.  *I made up a ton of other reasons too (car in shop, taking the truck is too much gas, I'll be too sore for this 3 day class I'm taking this weekend, etc.) and it was really interesting to watch how so much of me was ready and prepared to focus more on my health but I found several good reasons (I'm really good at creating ones that give me permission to not work out) to NOT honor my commitment to my body.

I'm of the belief that my insecurities (I'm not good enough) are often at the root of my getting in the way of myself.  I try the mantra "I am good enough" to move me when I want to play lazy, or find reasons to dodge what I know is good for me.  This am, that didn't work to help me overcome the back pain that stopped me from boot camp, but it DID help me to not go back to sleep, get up, stretch, blog and plan to at least go on a hike by 7 am.  

Yesterday, I noticed that I did lots of great things for myself with ease.  I walked with my friend Denise, had a really productive work day, drank LOTS of water (and if you know me that's CRAZY), didn't eat after 7 (although I really, really wanted to) and went to sleep in silence (usually, I have to have a show on the laptop to sleep.)  These are baby steps for me....and I'm really proud of myself for sticking to being good enough to live a healthy and fulfilling life.  I don't know if sobriety has me more easily being able to make better choices, or if I'm able to recognize self destructive behavior and interrupt it OR if I'm just having a good week.  Either way, day 2 was a great day.  I was able to focus on my mind, body, heart and spirit.  Balance is lovely.